It hit me this week that it’s been 18 years since I was an 18-year-old college freshman. That symmetry is a little funny to me and I have a lot more empathy for that little sprout after the past couple weeks. Navigating a new city, adjusting to a different schedule, living with strangers, creating a routine, dealing with my own met (or not met) expectations— all those things take a toll. I have a much better understanding of who I am, what I want, and how I function which makes it easier to handle these changes. Me now goes to bed earlier, drinks way less alcohol, and reaches out when I need that emotional support. Me then… well, poor kiddo was doing her best.
This past week, I made a dumb mistake when it came to saving the draft of my first project and I didn’t get the second draft in on time. The reaction from the instructor, the TA, and everyone in class was oh no, that sucks, but in my head, it was oh no, you suck. I tried not to dwell on it (a lifelong struggle) and learned from it. Literally, I know now what I did wrong and I won’t do it again. Making mistakes and learning from them: it’s the whole point of why I’m here!
It’s great to be surrounded by smart, curious classmates who are also interested in creating stories. I’m really impressed and inspired by their work. I’m also really glad I did a lot of work…. in therapy, on jealousy and competitiveness. Not that an inferiority complex just goes away, but the old adage is true: the only person you can compare yourself to is yourself, hence these thoughts on my 18 year old self. She never could have ever imagined that I’d be here right now (mostly because podcasts didn’t exist back then lmaoooo) but I think she’d think it’s really cool.
“Wait, Andrea, why are you in radio school?”
That’s about it for your ol’ girl. I think every other Sunday might be the schedule moving forward. Please read that last sentence with an upward inflection because who knows how the next few weeks will be as schoolwork kicks into higher gear. Bear with me as I keep going and keep making mistake
Love from a sunny day in Maine,
xo A
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So incredibly proud of you, Andrea! Exciting to follow along your adventures during this next stage of growth and success. You're amazing